Falling is not Failing

Monday, September 24th, 2012

Lacey is fortiesh. She is tall and slender. It doesn’t quite look right that she is walking in to my consult room using a cane with a timid uncertainty that is verified by a kind of uncertain smile.

There is a pleasant mildness and grace about her and a creamy smoothness in her speech.

As she begins to talk a warm smile beams out.

It was 94/95. It was a new time in my life. I was very excited. It was the time my husband proposed.

After the proposal I got lots of headaches. I could just blank out and fall to the ground. Each time I fell I would hit my head in exactly the same spot on the occiput.

They found a growth of inflamed tissue on my right temporal lobe. Ultimately they discovered that the siezures came from the left side of the brain and after the third craniotomy they removed some scar tissue and the frequency/ intensity of the episodes very much decreased.

I still do get the seizures. They seem to be trigerred by the smell of frying food or by loud noises. I am on a medicine that helps a lot.

Last year I had a bad seizure. I fell backward and hit the back of my head and the lumbar region of my back. Since then my balance has been off as well.

I’ve been very nervous of everything. I cannot cross the street alone. I feel always that people are watching.

I notice that excitement seems to bring on the seizures. Attention seems confining (referring to public speaking).

There is an aura. First, there is a funny taste in my mouth. Then nausea in my stomach and dryness of the mouth. I will go unconscious for about 5 minutes. On waking there is confusion.

This can happen about 5 times per month but only once with unconsciousness since the medication.

They happen more in the morning. Mornings can get stressful and crowds are worse.

The loss of balance-vertigo is more difficult when walking because I have to look to see where I am going. When I look the vertigo is worse.

In my back it is as if a fist is in there pressing. It is a bit better from lying on the back. I try to move it around to release it. It is worse from sitting too long and worse rushing.

Ever since the fall it is hard to fully release urine. There are frequent urgings but not a lot comes out. There is a constant feeling as if there is a lot there but nothing comes out.

This is just something else I have no control over.

I am a real burden. Sometimes I just feel like walking away.

I always looked after my sister. I was “in charge” and reliable. When I did any acting or singing people said I did a great job. I did not depend on anyone.

Not being able to work is a big thing. I worked in a nursing home. I was helpful and in control.

In sleep I get lots of visions. Its as if someone communicates with me, telling me what to do and cautioning me. I also get dreams telling me to do what I want.

Appetite is highest in the morning. Desires are ice cream,brownies,mayo and nuts.

I am a people person. I love art and culture. I love finding new things to learn.

My volunteer work is important. Its like a little family. I love nature.

The slightest breeze will cause eye to water.

Phos is a hit on our rep chart but we need to be careful. Does it really look like Phos? There is no craving for ice cold water (thirst was not so remarkable). There is no hyper-sympathetic aspect. No extreme sensitivity to barometric pressure. No burning pains.

The origins of the problem come froma time of great excitement-that does sound like phos. The back pains seem to fit phos nicely. The warm engaing presentation of this lady combine with her timid nervousness seem like phos.

I prescribed phos 12c once every third day.We did not have a 6c in stock and she struck me as frail and sensitive. Ok-I’m over cautious here but she just gave me that sense.

Next clinic day(approx 3weeks).

Patient reports being less depressed. More playful with the kids. Balance seems a bit better.

Back seems 80% better!

Sleep is better.

She can eat fruits now (they had been causing diarrhea).

Too soon to asses seizures.

Plan. Continue phos 12.

Next clinic (approx 3 weeks).

Have had 2 seizures.

I have joined a gym. I always wanted to. I am less nervous and less concerned with what people think. I walk with a lot more confidence.

Plan. Continue phos 12 every third day.

Next clinic.

All that I wanted is falling into place. Medically,mentally and physically.

Frequent urination is better and emptying is improved.

Ive been going to the gym. I work out and there is less pain all over.

The seizures seem to be once to twice monthly now. I am not falling. I sense the taste in my mouth and sit down. I breathe slowly. It lasts a few minutes. I need some water before a seizure.

I can stay up later and my energy is improved. Mental state much improved. Family seems less cautious of me.

Plan. Cont Phos 12c as before. Take a dose immediately upon sensing the coming of an episode.(This follow up was nicely conducted by Monica Frohmann while I was off frolicking)

Next clinic.

Everything is going right medically. My balance is much better the last 2 weeks and maybe I don’t need a cane. Going to the gym and it feels great. I am much more social. Meeting new people.

I did have a seizure yesterday. I felt it coming and calmed myself. It was the first in a long time and shorter in duration.

Basically I feel overall 80% improved.

Certainly the case is not fully cured but even this far we can see a dramatic shift. I like Homeopathy.